Not an Eulogy…

Dude Ravi,this one is for you...and how I wish I never ever had to write it...

This is not an ode,nor an eulogy dude…

I know u wont like it,would have shouted…hey dont be such a brood

This wont be the sentimental,maudlin,mawkish sonnet

And i know you wont mind this language ornate

For you different was good,and the aberration were straight rite

Everything under the sun was doable,and even the tough things seemed light

Hey,remember the college time,people trying to chastise us and all

Blithe nonchalance for them you had,but still managed to stay the priggish student on call

I knew it then,and i so dearly believed

That you will be the same come what may the deal

Probably didnt tell you that time,and probably would have never shared or shown

That you were one of the anchors,that i held free of danger of being dragged or drown

But wanna tell it now dude,and tell it in a loud freaking wail,

A part of me just sank,without me aware,and attempts to get it back,alas of no avail

You always turned tables over argument,specially when i wanted your support

For you were just a kid whose love and admonition was unconditional and unconcord

Just want to argue once more dude,and wanna get on the recieving end once again

But just this one time,let us prolong it for as long,this game

I hate being such a grown up ,I dont want to be able to tolerate pain,

I want to go back being a kid,whom everybody protects from the first sights of bane

They all say that life is going to come back on track,everything will be normal

I should believe it right,this age old parable

For with you,a part of me has just gone numb,or its just a semblance

May be too much pain,or should i say too much gift for tolerence

Words help i guess,they are the last lane i take a turn into,once again

But this time,too many shadows,all seems like a mirror maze,full of memories and pain

Memories I relish,memories I want to relive ,and though i shout encore,

With them,braided are parts which the kid in me is scared of and says no more

I don't have very many questions albeit some,

Where was he,the almighty,the omnipotent,the one,

He should have been there right???

To help,to extend that hand,and to pull you back with all his might…

This is not and eulogy dude,nor an ode…