How long??

Success makes you a little forgetful.
You forget to question yourself,torment yourself.
Kind of forget to ask yourself some nagging questions...
Those nagging questions which raise their ugly head when we fail..
We see ourselves being denied of what is rightfully ours
And then we ask...How long...


I retrace,recount,those steps,back,further back,
Dizzy head,like a given up pugilist,
What went amiss,where it faltered,where the lack??
Unable to figure,hope,shade dimmer,hazy,covered by mist...


I know there is light,somewhere else,for sure,
Where my steps are waited upon,to be greeted,
Where that flickering lamp of success,glowing,pure,
And my thoughts,lucid,my own,not a proxy,stimulated...


But till then,I fight against those demons,
Under my bed,inside my head,troubling,keeping me awake
How long do I fight them,days,years or eons?
How long before I catch a blissful sleep,troubles abated,slaked...