I do care..Mom...

Not getting into the motivation, inspiration et al for this...Will write about it sometime later...


Not scared anymore Ma, in this far away place,
But that scares me even more so,
It was just yesterday, when we parted ways,
Sniffling, tugging at your Sari, not letting you go.

But you had to , and strangers were all I had,
Spooky corridors, unfriendly beds, acting grown up, big,
I did grow up mama, a little grumpy, a little sad,
Those fragments of childhood, falling like dry twigs.

Years passed in a jiffy, filling most of the cracks,
All my fears, anger for being away from you, now ossified,
Laces tied, shoes polished, I am ready, holding the bag packs ,
I should be happy na? Returning home? Why am I so terrified.

Ma, don’t get me wrong, I love you the same, actually even more,
Just that you were so far, my problems stupid to trouble you,
Silly fever, that dumb bully, that fall from stairs, wound still sore,
Thought it was better, to swallow , than telling you in lieu.

I know I am wrong ma, but me, just your stupid son,
He has gone a little too far, for he filters before he shares,
He,Unable to tell you, call out and say “I need you mom”,
But deep inside he hopes,you understand,you know,he cares.